A Piece of my Mind (Part 2)

The struggle continues.
My mind aches.
Split in two.
Shattered, constricted,
Bruised and bleeding.
Why me?
What did I do?
Do I deserve this?

Daddy’s not spoken
in three weeks now.
And poor mum,
standing there alone,
helpless.
Bullets whiz by.
She is hit.
Tears of blood
She weeps.
Uttering a solemn cry.
“Peace”.

But you still want
this fight to go on.
I’ve told you
A million times now
You’re better than me.
But you rub it in.
Take no mercy.
Another willful sin.

Oh Please listen.
These tears I sob
its not for attention.
Just a plea.
A silent cry to you
to stop this
childish acts
of foolishness.

The hatred between us.
So great it is.
I can’t believe
were brothers.
More than brothers.
Were twins.
You are my
Flesh and Blood.
And yet you,
Destroy me.
Feasting on my
Dying body and
Spilling my blood.
Hurting others.
Just to strike me?
I don’t believe you.
How could you be so selfish?
Shameless, arrogant!
Uncaring.

It used to be me
who was like you
are now.
But it seems
That we’ve changed.

I wish
we could start over.
Not fight anymore.
Not compare.
Just get along.
Have fun.
Be like Twins.
The flesh and blood we are.
The once and the same.
But it’s not what I want.
You don’t listen anymore.
Open your heart and
hear my cry.
U don’t even
Give a fuck about
Mummy and daddy
No more.

So all I ask is that
You listen to me.
As I try and save this family.
Dad and mum have given up.
Only I can help you now.
All I ask is for an ear.
I plead for just one.
But my plea
falls on the deaf.
You’re too good for it.
And so you don’t listen.
Keeping this fight raging on.
Can’t you see
that I’ve given up.
I surrender.
You win.
That’s what u always wanted
But even that
You don’t see.
All I want
Is peace.
But you still treat me
worse than a piece of shit
your little bitch.
The unwanted child.
That’s all I am in your mind.
An asshole is what you’ve become
Reflect back and see.
What a perfect brother
You used to be.

Why me? I ask again.
Only I can stop it.
But what do I do?
As stubborn as you are.
I pray for you.
I pray for my
Hate, the jealousy.
Cus you are
Better than me.
And yet you don’t see.
My proclamation to thee.

This is the cross that I must carry.
and I pray to God to help me.
My faith grows weary.
As you draw further away.
Causing more torment.
Ripping the love.
The family.

I am weak.
Can’t you see?
Don’t exploit me.
Heaven help me.
Why have you abandoned me?
I pray for a miracle.
To come save us.
You, me mummy and daddy.
Yet my only reply is silence.

The pain.
It’s unbearable now.
My heart.
Set up a skew.
In the flames of hatred.
The torment. Torture.
You ripping it to pieces.
Why?
Why me?
God help me.
Help me stop.
Help me stop this misery.
I have no more.
No more blood left.
My wounds left open.
Attacked by you.
Weak and vulnerable.
My faith grows weary.
My God. My God.
Why have you forsaken me?